How to rebuild your reputation and image?

We learn a lot of theories to rebuild or gain a corporate or brand image...
But did the theories able to apply to a human who have bad reputation and spoiled image?
Did the theories able to apply to the situation?
You will find out that the theories are bullshit when you apply into it...
It is because you will find out that it is so difficult if your image has been damage...
My image spoiled, i though it is spoiled because they are not agree to my way of doing things...
Now i realize that I'm wrong...or maybe it's not 100% correct...
My image spoiled because of someone talking about me with adding salt and vinegar...
Is it people like to exaggerate something?
It was a misunderstanding...
I don't know why they want to make it as a big deal...
I don't mind to be boycotted as long as the reason is reasonable...
If you told me you don't like me because the way i talk, the way i work, I can accept...
But this is ridiculous...
I hope people please be fair to me...
Please judge me by your own opinion not words from other people mouth...

Memories & REJECTED

This Wednesday was my wonderful ever day...

Saw my Ah ma (Chitra) and my Jie Jie (Sharon), get a warm hug from them...

Saw everybody that I missed badly during my internship...

I started to miss my internship, I have a wonderful time over there...

I just can't deny that I miss them badly...

I hope I can just stop my time in Pan Pacific at least it won't be as suffer as now...

I wonder will I won't get nightmare if I ask everybody don't choose me as president???

The wonderful Palmz cosy atmosphere allow me to relax, I like the bar stool so much...

Can I just get 1 if i got a house in future??? I just can't resist when I saw a bar stool...

I have a nice iced Mocha although I order latte... ><

However, The Cod Fish was superb...

They say I'm kembang sikit... OK, not sikit but banyak....

hahahahahaha....

I really miss the casual Pan Pac office...

The laughter I left there...

The praises which I did not heard it long time ago...

They see what I did, they praise what I does...

When having my relaxing mind in Palmz, I get reject sponsors from ayambrand and Pokka...

What else is worst than like this??? However, I dont have feeling and continue to enjoy my Iced Mocha...

Do you think the word reject end just like this since i get uncountable reject from other sponsor in this week...

Follow up my last 2 hope of booth rental today...

Guess what answer I get???

Same word, REJECT...

I think I will hate REJECT shop too because it is just too over and I have a little bit too much on it...

I don't need bad news to make my night sweeter...

Please just keep your mouth shut if you have bad news this week...

I don't want to hear it anymore...

I hope no more, I get enough...

No feeling

First time got no feeling when get bomb by the black lady...

First time got no feeling when i did badly in my CC & TC mid term...

Got totally no feeling when saw the low marks...

First time gonna make good for my mid term...

All sad things come together, however, I got no feeling...

Lost our event main sponsors for TWO times...

Get a lot of reject today when call for follow up sponsors...

Not much sponsors get for our event...

My confident for this even is flow out like waterfall...

The worst feeling I ever had which is I got no feeling...

Please let me cry, but no tears...

Please let me laugh, but without any sound or even without my mouth opened...

Is this the feeling which even worst than die???

I wondering...

I hope I can just sleep and awake when I finish my advanced diploma...

Sorry but seriously...

Don't have good feeling at all towards our event...

I'm so childish and innocent to think that I can handle these 44 person...

I'm over confident on myself at the beginning and now I'm getting hurt...

This work is so called 吃力不讨好...

Pay so much effort to exchange with criticism from the black lady and the members...

Nobody understand my situation...

Keep feeling bad and bad in my studies...

I got fail for all my mid term although I have only 3 subjects...

I'm so disappointed to myself...

I feel sorry to my mom if I fail any subject in final...

I hope I won't...

At least no repeat...

However, I wish I don't have resit too...

Please let me just go through smoothly...

I don't aim high now...

I just want a pass...

Yes! I hope they won't fight back...

When I bite their head...

And I hope I could doing this right now...

P.S. : I gotta feeling, that tonight won't be a good night...

Unmotivated

Yesterday night Audrey just suddenly drop by my MSN to say Hi...
but we chat more than just a hi, Im asking about her job and she telling about how the Westin bitch does...
Ok, the bitch is not important, the important thing is I realize people thinking was always the one who affect people in every aspect, physically, psychologically.

You might felt motivated and want to prove you are the best after some bitches do something to make you down...
But not always worked that way...
You might felt tired of fighting, unmotivated and defeat by those bitches...

I promise that I'm trying hard to protect all my members...
However, now I'm out of energy to protect them...
Instead of fight back, I let the black lady to boom me without fighting back...
I'm tired...
Because I'm unmotivated now...
I still thinking to motivate the members with the failed brilliant idea...
However, I fail to implement it...
Now I'm feel I'm unmotivated while i still try hard to motivate others...
Sorry to say that I give up in everything about this psychologically...
Because I really don't care about it anymore...
However, I felt this is not me...

I really shouldn't wear this big hat since I really don't have a big head...
Now this hat cover my face, I can't see anything in front, cause me fall into accident...
Which hurt me so much...
I'm in an accident...

我的心真的受伤了。。。

Culture

Many people may not see culture as a big thing...
However, culture was just a so big influence in our life...
When you are forced to work with people with different culture, you will know that is so difficult...
I really can't work with them, I swear I tried...
And now, I'm tired to tried...
We are just so different...
We have different way of talking and thinking and even, style of working...
I'm not satisfy you and you are not able to work with me...

I admit i have problem as well...
I did not pay 100% effort in it...
Because I'm fed up...

I'm straight in everything, especially when talking...
I don't like to turn around only reach the main point...
I hope this is my only problem...
Felt myself just so bad...

I'm not a good leader...

Today, I'm thinking did I really do the right thing?
I felt that I did not solve the problem properly, or I should say I do not know how to solve.
I felt people viewing me in a different way already.
Now I can't even believe myself compare to others.
What I'm doing now?
This question was come towards me today every second.
I did not lost faith on you but on myself only.
Maybe I'm just not suitable.
Thinking of exchange position.
I was like running away from the problem but I need a break and clear mind to decide.
I just hate myself why I want to take this position.
Thinking of disappear for a few days.
Just want back my normal life.
I though I could stand for pressure but now I know I can't.
Feel so emo.
Totally doesn't know what I'm doing this sem and I don't know what I'm doing right now.

The feel might be good If I could sit under a tree and just do nothing.

Waiter

I dont know why...
I like to be a waiter...
Recently accept quite a few jobs as waiter...
Of course, with high salary... haha...
But i enjoy the job...
I might end up with F&B department maybe...
However, I'm considering in sales as well...
Because of last internship experience in Pan Pac...
But I know not all the hotel doing the same thing although same department...
I fall in love in event, but this sem event make me headache...
Of course, all is because of human problem...
Anyway, I'm not going to talk about the event here...
Just wish after advanced diploma i can get a high salary job to save money go UK...
That is my current aim now...
I just hope my wish was not too hard to come true...
My dream department for my future career...
F&B, Banquet, Sales & Marketing, Event, Communications & Catering Sales