I'm not a good leader...

Today, I'm thinking did I really do the right thing?
I felt that I did not solve the problem properly, or I should say I do not know how to solve.
I felt people viewing me in a different way already.
Now I can't even believe myself compare to others.
What I'm doing now?
This question was come towards me today every second.
I did not lost faith on you but on myself only.
Maybe I'm just not suitable.
Thinking of exchange position.
I was like running away from the problem but I need a break and clear mind to decide.
I just hate myself why I want to take this position.
Thinking of disappear for a few days.
Just want back my normal life.
I though I could stand for pressure but now I know I can't.
Feel so emo.
Totally doesn't know what I'm doing this sem and I don't know what I'm doing right now.

The feel might be good If I could sit under a tree and just do nothing.

Waiter

I dont know why...
I like to be a waiter...
Recently accept quite a few jobs as waiter...
Of course, with high salary... haha...
But i enjoy the job...
I might end up with F&B department maybe...
However, I'm considering in sales as well...
Because of last internship experience in Pan Pac...
But I know not all the hotel doing the same thing although same department...
I fall in love in event, but this sem event make me headache...
Of course, all is because of human problem...
Anyway, I'm not going to talk about the event here...
Just wish after advanced diploma i can get a high salary job to save money go UK...
That is my current aim now...
I just hope my wish was not too hard to come true...
My dream department for my future career...
F&B, Banquet, Sales & Marketing, Event, Communications & Catering Sales

Headache

The most headache issue during this event is human relation management...
This is a problem where everyone would come across...
However, I dont know what can i do to fix it...
Im tired of others things and now give me 1 more new problem to solve...
If there is a person willing to hold back, it will be peace...
Human is like that, they dont want to be the people who lose something but they dint think that they lose something and gain a lot...
Why so care about the little and forget about the big benefit?
Sorry, I gonna be strict right now and is a cause from all of your action...
Please dont made me do something even cruel that you would ever think...
Because you wont know what i will going to do, i can do something out of your expectation and you couldnt afford the effect of my action...
Please dont make me do this...

I need brain juices and good night sleep

Start my new sem...
New lecturer, although ms tiong is not new...
haha...
new assignment...
and new event...
im so excited to come across this event b4 i start this sem...
however, now im so tired of it...
my brain constraint, i cant sleep well every night...
i will be slim after this event for sure...
i got no fix meal time, 2 meals per day...
im start losing confident on myself...
Do i really can manage all this..
can i come out a fantastic event?
im suspecting on my ability...
looking forward how worst it will be...
i dont want it to be worst...
im killing my brain juices currently without any reasons...
thinking of something useless...
i should use my brain juices in a correct manner..
i hope i can really come out a great event...
i hope everyone satisfy on me...
i hope i wont disappoint anyone...
i hope i can...
i hope....

从返校园

明天就要回去学校了...
最想念的还是我那些天真无邪(恶心),可爱活泼(作呕),聪明伶俐的同学们。。。
怀念大家的精湛演技（当每次有role play时）。。。
最令我开心的是，第一天上的课是我们最敬爱的PR老师。。。
哈哈哈。。。
想念她那开得起玩笑的说话方式。。。
希望可以快点有assignment，那我就有事情做了。。。
期待看见大家。。。

原来,三个月,就这样过了...

Pan Pacific 的生活，终于来到尾声了。。。
没想到短短的三个月，发生了那么多事。。。
有开心的，伤心的，欢笑，眼泪。。。
但是现在回想起来，所有的回忆都是甜蜜的。。。
无论工作多么的辛苦，只要回到宿舍，看到大家，还是高兴的。。。
所有的开心照片可以到面子书看看...

Res dept in pan pac

Finally, i end my internship in reservation department...
I though i will be very happy since reservation is a boring department...
But the people there make me not wish to leave the department...
I'm just like them so much...
They teach me a lot of stuff...
They let me found something that is challenging in the department...
They let me understand reservation department work can be very hard too...
After all, I like room controller task so much...
It is so challenging when high occupancy...
I like kak linda so much...
She is a 'sweet' girl... kaka...
she teach me a lot...
Other than that, I like reply email in reservation...
I feel so challenging because I will get some different enquiry everyday...
I'm just like it so much...
I receive a lot of complimentary from them, especially my manager...
She like me cause I'm fast learner, smart, and I'm efficient...
I hope she will give me a good evaluation.. kaka...

I will going to Sales and Marketing tomorrow...
I hope I can touch more in event than sales...
I like event so much...
Other than that, I wish I can learn PR too...
I looking forward to get what I expected at there...

I had done my internship half way...
I will appreciate everyday that I'm here...